Monday, February 22, 2010

Funk Be Gone

"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through HIM who gives me strength. Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles." Philippians 4:12-14

I'm in a Funk and it BITES.

This morning, after taking the girls to school, I returned home and sought HIS infinite wisdom and strength and was lead to the above verse. I do not typically portray my weaknesses. Or share my troubles. I am a fighter and a hard worker and I have faith.

I know in my heart that HE is in charge and most times when I feel like this, the day gets better if I let it. If I believe it. If I will it to be so.

But today's introspection has shown me the benefit of allowing others to share in my troubles.

I haven't been feeling very bloggy lately. Obviously! When was the last time I went over a week without posting? Espech when that week included milestones like...

A Valentine's Day with my (rockstar, made for me, sends me sweet texts everyday just when I need them, reads my mind and makes my world) Husband
A 5th Birthday for my MollyB
MJ conquering her two-wheeler
Me hosting a baby shower for my sister in law...

So many pictures and fun, exciting events! Yet...still no energy to put them to words. No energy to do much of anything. Just a cloudy, heavy haze that I walk around in, hoping tomorrow I wake with some sense of renewal.

This happens to me every so often. Usually when there is so much on my plate I don't know exactly what to do next. So I just don't do anything...like an Ostrich, I stick my head in the sand and sorta let everything pile up and spin out of control while I sit back and watch. And when I let one thing get out of control...other areas of my life soon follow suit. 

I haven't run in a over a week.
I haven't made dinner in days.
I've needed to go to the grocery store since last Wednesday.
I ate McDonald's TWICE in three days.
The beds aren't made.
Breakfast is still on the kitchen table.
My last shower was Friday.
I have no idea the balance in my checking account.
Or the number of emails or tweets or Etsy convos or Facebook messages I need to return.
I just went to move the wash to the dryer and realized it was a load I started 3 days ago.
So I sat back down on the couch.
There were tears.

Yesterday I could've gotten a million things done...but instead I ate ice cream and read The Last Song from cover to cover. Literally. OSTRICH!

I share this not to depress you too, or make anyone worry. But more as a cathartic release of all this ICK. As a metamorphosis of sorts. I'm done being an Ostrich. Today, post post...I resolve to be a Phoenix and rise out of this funk.

Post post, there will be cleaning and singing...music must be involved. There will be opened windows and opened emails...a run must occur. THIS verse will be repeated again and again in my head. Today will begin a sort of Project 413 on my life, my attitude, my expectations. Who knows...by days end, there might even be a picture or two for you to enjoy.

16 comments:

Polka Dot Moon said...

Oh my far away friend; I've been there many times! You just described me a couple of weeks ago. We all get into a funk and sometimes just writing what you just did gives you the mojo to get out of it. Take your time, we'll be here! You will rise again ;)

Carla said...

Thank you for sharing. I have been feeling like this for awhile. It is nice to know that there is someone else out there that feels the same way! Here's to a fresh day to put our mark on!

Beki - TheRustedChain said...

Ohh I've been in a funk lately too.

Your blog, however always makes me smile. :)

LOOOOOOVE the background on it.

love said...

oh, sweet friend, it's going around. i just posted about it today, too. though, you're quoting scripture & i'm singing bob marley!!!! LOL

i love you. i'll be praying for you as i get outta this, too.

{we are VERY much the same with the ostrich-ness!}

HT said...

I have the same tendency to stick my head in the sand when there are just too much going on!

But when I get up and going everything just gets done in no time at all!

mel @ the larson lingo said...

((HUGS))
I have SO been where you have been! Praying for you & hoping you will be able to get out of your funk!
Love you, friend!

Aubs said...

I LOVE YOU. thank you for sharing your heart and allowing me the chance to pray specifically for you. your amazing and i am cheering w/ you...FUNK BE GONE! {for us both!} Hugs!

LauraC said...

You know I appreciate the honesty.

And you know, sometimes there is no shame in not getting things accomplished. Sometimes it is okay to give your body and mind a break and just let the little things go. We can't all be SuperMom every single day of the year. No one ever died of eating chicken mcnuggets or unmade beds.

Hope you get out of your funk and back to your normal Erin self!

(One morning a few months ago Alex drank a FULL GLASS of milk that had been sitting on the table from dinner the night before that I had not cleaned up when Jon was out of town an entire week and I was just tired.)

Heather :: AFD Jewelry :: said...

Big hugs, my friend! I too am *so* an ostrich when I'm feeling that way. Try to hang in there ~ I'm thinking of you!

xoxoxoxx!

Joanna said...

Go, go, GO, E! You can do it!

Baby Mama said...

oh, honey, thanks for sharing this!! we are all human, it is okay to FEEL.. I do hope your funk leaves you today, I will be praying for you... one thing at a time, it will all be ok.

One other thing, you are such an inspiration and due in part to you, i had my first run yesterday!!! so thank you, for touching my life!!

Nancy said...

I have so been there. That verse is so true and so poignant. It will give you the breath that you need. He will lift you up and give you strength. He can do it all. Even when we can't....

TDM Wendy said...

Praying for you. Praying you get more sleep, more exercise and more Jesus. It's a winning combo and yet a struggle to get enough of any of those in the motherhood.

wishful nals said...

thank you for sharing. sometimes talking and writing is the best way to release it! :)

Bert Bell said...

Praying the wind of the Holy Spirit blows fresh and new in, over, and through you...refreshing, refreshing, refreshing in the mighty name of Jesus. That the wind of the Holy Spirit blows away all mullygrubs and despondency in the mighty name of Jesus. I pray the Holy Spirit pours out joy abundantly in your spirit for the Joy of the Lord is our strength. Many hugs and many more blessings for your honesty and meekness. Huggers!!!

Julie @ Joy's Hope said...

that is so me 5 out of 10 given days.
praying for you.
for sunshine and peace.
hugs friend.

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