Tuesday, January 04, 2011
After much consideration, I've settled on one sole resolution this year.
I've resolved not to make any big resolutions.
As a direct result of having unrealistic expectations of myself and my time...
And cloudy lines between my needs and wants and wishes and hopes...
The last few months of 2010 left me feeling like I was constantly letting people,
And that sucked!
So this year I want to just live.
Really BE in each day.
Experiencing what it is God blesses me with that day.
My children, my health, my sweet husband.
My location, my faith, my creativity.
A book, a recipe, a photograph.
I don't want to spend each day anxious over making and checking off lists.
I don't want to wake feeling tired and go to bed unable to sleep.
I don't want to obsess today on what will most likely still need to be done tomorrow.
I don't want my sense of pride and accomplishment to come from things like
A blog post.
Things in their place.
A number on the scale.
Instead I 'm just going to BE.
Mind you, I'm not just a feather in the wind!
Being ME means goals of course.
I do want to gain, and grow, and go.
But in order to be my BEST me, I've discovered I must let go of the big resolutions.
Cut them out completely and leave no room for feeling
and pretty much all together pissed off.
So I resolve to be resolute-less in 2011.
My "goal" is to be my best self.
Who knows what that will mean day by day.
Today it was deciding on the best things to put in our mouths this week.
Ones that also inspired my senses and my love of cooking - then shopping for it all.
Today it was sharing lunch and laughter and CHAOS with two dear girlfriends.
Today it was knowing I am better when I run.
And making that a priority again.
Today it was listening to my heart.
I'm excited to listen and learn, feel and find, what it will mean tomorrow!
And next week.
And especially, almost a year from now.
Happy NEW Year!